current mood: ayoko lang =(

current mood: ayoko lang =( ayoko gumawa ng kahit anong sobrang saya na bagay ngayon lalo na kung alam ko na paralyzed naman talaga yung pakiramdam ko. mahirap kumilos kung at the back of your mind hindi ka naman at peace. kung at the back of your mind may kailangan ka tapusin pero ang masama dun ni hindi mo nga maumpisahan. ayun. naka-paralyzed ako ngayon. ang kontrolado ng kilos, emosyon at desisyon ko.

bye 2007, hello 2008

Few days from now eh NEW YEAR na... wooohooo! anung meron sa 2008 at dapat ma-excite ako? hmmm. well, ewan ko pero i find that year very interesting and special. kasi cguro "08" and 8 is my favorite number. Feeling ko lang magiging maganda ang year na ito for me. But how was my 2007 nga ba? Ang daming nangyari. i swear. parang kung babalikan ko di ko na nga alam kung anu mga highlights eh. First is yung OJT. How will I forget that training. Parang lahat na-experience ko. Sariling sikap ang pag-aapply, natupad ang wish ko na magwork sa abscbn kahit as a trainee lang. Di ko akalain na aabot ako ng 3months dun na kung tutuusin eh kayang kaya ko tapusin in a month ang 300hours requirement ko. Ayoko pa tlga umalis kaya nga nagvolunteer pa ako sa HERO after my training. halo halo na tlga 'to... *FILM. Iba yung experiences ng shooting for our film class. it was a one day shoot pero ang daming nyang naturo sa akin about being in a GROUP. Those were the times na seryosong pagod na pagod na tlga ako. grabe yun. buti na lang we survived! *DAVAO. wow! ang gastos nito pero masaya ang trip. 3days and 2nights sa DAVAO to document the lives of some Miriam volunteers. 1st super OUT OF TOWN with FRIENDS *FRIENDS. wala lang ang EMO ko sa year 2007 with my friends. grabe sa EMO hahaha *GIGS. 2007 ang year na halos wala akong napuntahan na gigs. hindi ako naging tambay ng araneta coliseum. nkakapanibago talaga. *MULTIPLY. eto ang year na super naadik ako sa multiply account ko hahaha ay, wala na akong maalala hahaha... basta im really looking forward sa 2008. graduation na... corporate world na. haaaaaaaaaaaaaay. goodluck na lang talaga mwahugz kaRen

emotionally stressed

For 2 months i guess medyo emotionally stressed na talaga ako. ganito ata talaga ang buhay SENIOR. buhay graduating. nakaka-iyak na lang yun dami ng deadlines na magkakasunod at tipong hindi ko alam anu uunahin ko. Hindi naman pwdeng gumawa ng gumawa ng isang project dahil i have to consider na i am in a GROUP. Lahat ng requirements namin comes in group. Hindi pwdeng mag move ka and do not consider the majority. kelan ko maghintay at mag-adjust... well wala naman akong reklamo sa GROUP, maski individual pa yan. PEro sigur yung emotions ko masaydo ng nagtataglo talo. Kelangan ko na sasalo sa akin. Kasi feeling ko anytime bibgay ako. Well, iyakin akong bata as in i can cry in cue... at kapag SUPER STRESSED na ako nahahalata dahil naiiyak na lang ako without saying anything. as in naglalakad ako tapos maluluha na. Maybe because that my only outlet. Hindi ako sumisigaw or nagagalit or nagdadabog kapg STRESSED na ako. All i do is CRY. Ang weird but im really like that. Ang sensitive ko. Feeling ko kasi sa ganitong mga panahon yung emotions ko eh nasa tuktok na ng ulo ko at anytime, any moment na may mangyari at mag trigger sa akin eh, wasak! maiiyak na ako... For the past few days, ang weird na tlga ng feeling ko parang simpleng bagay ginagawa kong BIG deal. Minsan for the sake of mainis at malungkot na lang ako eh nagiging sensitive ako. Parang yung stress ko hindi pupwedng andun lang xa there must something to push me OUT para ma-out ko rin ang stress ko at maiiiyak ko... so naka-isip ako ng theory ng aking pagiging stressed. stressed+factor that can trigger my emotions= CRY (then will lead to having a good feeling dahil na out ko na kahit konti ang STRESS ko) hahaha labo. labo talaga. ang bigat sa loob.

doubt

WOULD IT MAKE ME A LESSER FRIEND??!!! bothered ako first week pa lang ng semester... puro questions and doubts... di ko alam... nakaka lungkot na after i searched for some peaceful moments nung summer.. ganito naman ang magwewelcome sa school year ko... I am really bothered... ang sad :(

ill miss my OJT work

Super mamimiss ko ito kapag natapos na. Kahit nakakapagod super enjoy naman ang experiences ko. Nakaka-excite na nakaka-takot na masaya. Basta halo-halo na. Pero one thing is sure, ill will definitely miss the FUN FUN FUN kapag nag-start na ang class... freebies...perks...ups and downs of my training in media... sa mga BOSS at OJT mates... sa artists, utility, crew, drivers, canteen people, guards.... everyone!! hope to see you again... (for sure naman! haha) this is not goodbye (echos!) i just had fun on my training..... OK back on work! mwah!

i miss you

i miss you girls!! Jesy, Cris, and Kat, i suuuper miss you girls... miss the time when we just bumped with each other sa corridors. Where we shed sweats sa practices for programs. Eating lunch with you... i miss H.S life. i remember how we talked about college life, and now we only have months to count and we are again entering a new stage. We went to different colleges and universities with different courses. a NEW LIFE!! its just sooo sad to see you girls once a year. hopefully when all of us have our work, we can go out and celebrate... well, how i wish... loooove you girls! :)

colleczione!!!

My ultimate collection is BRAZIL prints. meaning, anything with Brazil prints on it binibili ko. Whenever i see one, and my budget ako i dont think twice. Kuha at punta agad sa counter to pay for it. Ganun ako kabilis pgdating sa collection na toh. I just love Brazil. its color. basta cant explain (weirdo!!). As of now this maroon tshirt with HAVAIANAS BRASIL on it is my next target. I saw it in a multiply account na ngbebenta ng shirt, i immediately txted the owner of the account para malaman kung available pa ang shirt. o di ba, ganun tlga kabilis. All in all, i have 4bags with Brazil prints,4 slippers, 2 id laces, and 5 shirts and my one and only BRAZIL JACKET, which i super love!... i know sobrang kulang pa yan. i saw a Brazil shoes once. And i am saving for it. but my ultimate dream is to visit the country, visit, Rio de janeiro or Sao Paolo... hmmm kelan kaya yun? sana. sana. sana. that's an ultimate wish I WANNA VISIT BRAZIL